This is a hard and fabulous post for me to write for many reasons, but let's just get to the meat of it.
Baby #2 is finally due to come to our family in November. This has been such a long time coming. We are so glad and excited and I'm so relieved that everything is going well. We're a little more than halfway through (22 weeks) and that feels great! November 11th is the official due date!
It's so hard for me to make that announcement for a couple of reasons. After nearly three years of struggling with "unexplained infertility" I've been rubbed pretty raw. And then add a miscarriage in there (pretty early) and I've been frightened the whole time that something was going to go wrong. So talking about it seemed overly optimistic and almost arrogant. I just didn't want to tell anybody so I wouldn't have to explain why I'm so "cautiously optimistic" to put it mildly.
Also, after dealing with all those struggles and feelings for a few years I know how it feels to never have success month after month. And every friend/acquaintance/stranger that has good news breaks your heart--even if you love that person to death and you're truly very happy for them. It's almost as if it feels like there are a finite number of babies in the world and everybody else is using them up before you can get to them. And like time is running out. And like your 1st will be 20 before he has a sibling (if it ever happens). And a zillion other things mixed in there. It's really complex.
So I would hate to cause anybody pain.
And if anybody is reading this who has been struggling, I hope you can take our story of a 2 plus year struggle with a successful outcome (so far) and think of it as an encouragement.
I haven't ever talked about this on the blog before because I just didn't know where to start. I'm also not a great writer, so I can't express myself super eloquently like some of my friends do. Anyway, it's just not something I've ever wanted to get out there--which is another reason why it's been hard to write this post. Where to start? Where to end?
But anyway, it's great news for us. We're so happy and excited!
Thanks for your support and love everybody, and we'll keep you posted.
(also...this may not be big news to some--it's already been out in the cyberworld because I had to make the facebook announcement earlier than I was thinking. But at some point it was necessary to tell people that actually see me, so they didn't just think I was overeating or something.)
23 comments:
Love , Love ,Love this post. I am so happy and excited about this new little girl. Yes I am being very optimistic that maybe I will someday get a grand-daughter but I will take a grandson to.
Anyway I love you all and am so sorry for the struggle you have been through. I am sure there are a lot of people that have been where you have been.
Ginna
What a beautiful post. Very perceptive thought, about there being only so many babies and everybody else is using them up.
Our love to you
Dad
My little one. There is a point, isn't there, when you have to accept joy as a real thing. It's always a risk. And I fear you have caught caution from me - who learned at an early age that just because you make it to the airport, your stand-by status doesn't guarantee you are going anywhere.
I, too, think of this child as a little girl. Kathy and I. We wouldn't force the hand of God for anything - but we still have this odd conviction. I guess we'll see. But now you are home. Now you have come to a nesting place. I hope, I pray for your family to settle in peace and to live in grace.
You are my beautiful child. My friend. I hope the sky is always beautiful for you now. From now on till forever.
Ginna,
Hooray! I love love love that you are pregnant right now, that you are so far along, that you are sharing something so personal on your blog, and most of all, that you survived these difficult years. Is it ok if I love your newest little baby a little extra than others because he/she came after so much struggle? Because I think I will.
This is the best news! We are honestly so excited for you! Are you going to find out what you're having or wait and be surprised? What and exciting time this is for your family! Thanks for sharing your story.
So happy for you! I pray that everything will keep going smoothly.
Novemeber 11th is a good day - that's Jason's birthday. Also, the baby would be part of the exclusive double digit club (my bday is 10/10, Jason's 11/11, Jason's dad's is 6/6, etc)
I have been wondering if I missed a post about this. We are excited for you guys! Congrats. Very sweet thoughts. You are right and so many people understand.
your writing is honest and wonderful. i loved this post. perfect.
congratulations. i am very happy for you! love the pictures. love your blog!
So happy for you and Kris, Ginna. And Max too. I hope you continue to feel good! Lots of love and good luck wishes coming your way.
So excited for you Ginna! I got a little teary reading this, knowing what you've been going through these past few years. We love you guys and cannot wait to meet him/her!! I love that you aren't finding out, that you are one of the crazies like me :)
YAY!!
and you have a fb? why aren't we friends?
Ginna-I loved your post. I know how difficult it is to put something this personal into words and to share with others. This baby is special and is coming to an amazing family! I'm soooooo excited for you guys. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!
P.S. You need to email me your new address sometime. And Natalie sends her love!
Oh Ginna. If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that everyone has their own private heartaches and sadnesses---things so hard they'd amaze you if you knew. Why did I not know this as a child? The understanding comes with age/experience/trials, I guess. I understand your feelings here more than you'd believe---and so do many people, probably. What I think is so TYPICAL of you is your sensitivity and concern for others first. Even through your own ups and downs of emotion. You are so awesome, and I'm so, so, happy for you. I hope everything goes perfectly (I'll be praying for you)!
Congratulations Ginna! I've been reading your blog for awhile (linked through Katie's) It's been fun to catch up with you and your family in all your adventures.
Our family was finally started after a 4 year struggle (we now have 4 boys!), so I can honestly say...I know how you feel. Congrats again!
You know I'm stinkin' happy for you guys!! :)
and I think it was aa very well written post.
I know how hard it all is..but you said it perfect.
Hugs.
I too think I'm not a great writer but this post you wrote is wonderful. Thank you for putting this on your blog. I love knowing how you feel.
Congratulations Ginna and Kris! This baby is really blessed to be coming to you, because I always thought you were awesome with Max. I hope you share some fun stories of how Max adjusts to the idea. ;) Congrats again.
Thanks for all the comments everybody. It's so nice to hear from all of you and feel your love! It's always nice to hear when we share experiences too, isn't it?
And I totally agree with Marilyn--everybody has their own struggles--secret or not. If we only knew what all of the others of us were going through it would change how we saw the world I think.
Love you all!!
Ginny and Kris and little crazy dude Max- I am so happy for all of you. SO HAPPY. And there couldn't be a luckier child in all the world than the one getting ready to come live with you and be your baby.
I love this post. So thoughtful and wonderfully written. Ginna, you are a wonderful writer and don't you ever forget it. No one else could have said this the way you said it: honestly, sweetly, and compassionately.
I love you friend.
Actually my dear Ginna, I think you wrote this very well! My heart was with yours.
I am so excited for you. Such a wonderful blessing to have another baby and such a blessing the empathy you have learned. You've always been sensitive to others. This post proves what a sweetheart you are.
Dear Ginna,
I know you must be feeling really great and lucky... But after reading this post I can only think how lucky this baby is (and Max already is). Your post made me cry and I know I have said it before but congratulations again to all of you.
You don't know me, but I just wanted to say how happy I am for you! Whenever I hear of someone who has finally had success in the limbo of trying-without-success, I want to cheer because I know what a happy thing it is! (I found your blog on Cjane's blog.)
Congratulations! I'm so happy for you!
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